I hate my wardrobe. Between moving to a different climate (NY to SF) and being pregnant (and now no longer being pregnant), everything is in a tizzy. I can sort of squeeze into things I used to wear pre-pregnancy, but I am not thrilled with the way things look, especially pants. Mostly I still wear maternity tops — yes, 7 months after the baby was born. Meanwhile, since we bought this house, money is tight, so I’m not running out to buy a new wardrobe. Not that I’d be thrilled buying things in a larger size, especially when my goal is to get smaller.
But I’m beginning to think I should do something along those lines. I bought a new suit for a conference that’s upcoming, and really feel like I look sharp in it. (And it’s not maternity! Yippee!) I need to get the pants altered for length, but otherwise it fits pretty well. Just putting it on gives me this whole new sense of self — a capable self that cares about her appearance.
At the moment, generally speaking, for work, I’m satisfied with wearing things that have some semblance of matching. I’m especially horrified by some black slip-on shoes that are comfortable but far from feminine. I practically wear those every day. At home on the weekends I’m pretty much in elastic-waisted pants and t-shirts. Not great, I must admit. Why DH still fancies me is beyond me. It must mean we are really made for each other.
Would taking more care (meaning buying new clothes I think flatter me) help me boost my self-image, thereby helping me eat (and exercise) like the person I envision myself to be? I mean, right now, I largely envision myself as a fat slob, so that certainly isn’t helping my eating habits. If I started dressing the part of a chic, self-confident milf, would that help me become that?
Over the next few weeks/months I’m going to start slowly adding to my wardrobe — DH is extremely supportive of this idea, by the way — and gauge how it makes me feel. I also need to get me to a hairdresser and get some highlights or something. This gray hair and shaggy haircut just won’t do.
BTW, WW WI tomorrow and I’m a bit scared. Also, biking may be completely off this weekend due to rain in the forecast. But there’s always running. The Burley trailer/stroller has a rain cover. And there’s the treadmill, too.